Repair

It is never too late to make amends. Sometimes what seems irreparable is healed by making a step of true dialogue.

Crucible

If I'm writing a lot, I have a lot of thoughts perhaps I need to get out. I don't wish to put utterly private things here or just moan about things. I just need to get out something.

Everyone has experienced pain of some sort whether it will be physical, mental, or heartbreak. Everyone will feel crushed, angry, hurt, etc. Everyone will feel that life will get them down. You could lose everything and it's utterly understandable when you don't want to wake up. In a sense, why should you? It's just going to go on and on. Whatever you prayed to doesn't seem to listen. Everyone has forsaken you or has turned against you. Deserted you.

Well, not really. I think that one has to take control of the situation. Mind you, blame is not taking control or responsibility. Telling yourself that you suck and you and others are bad aren't helping and neither is blaming others and even God for what is happening.

That's so weak. I've been there in all situations and it sucks. It's a hard place to be in. Sometimes you have to push forward and keep doing the right thing, even though if you do more of it it seems to be for naught or making things worse. Pain can heal and get better. If you don't think it will, well then it won't. You cannot depend on human beings to make it better for you. You can and in accordance to my personal beliefs God can as well. However, you have to see past the limitations somehow and go for happiness.

We are human. Life gets us down. Life hurts us and sometimes punches us in the balls. However, we can overcome. There is a light. Don't let the externals get you down and hopeless. You gotta think to yourself, go forward. I shouldn't be sad and I shouldn't be unhappy. That's not my life. It doesn't mean you will never be, it's just not what your default state should be.

Really. It does get better. Let adversary make you better, not bitter.

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The past few months I've been just contemplating things. Big changes in my life happened whether I wanted to or not. I tried to resist what could not be resisted because sometimes God works in mysterious ways.

I could look at things in a bad light, but perhaps they are for to bring me increased blessings as I hold fast to what I believe. I can't really blame things on anything as blame never gets anyone anywhere. In fact, the harder it sometimes gets, I view it as something as it makes me more resilient. Nothing is ever permanent and sometimes the only constant is change but we must make ourselves more malleable. It can be traumatic.

The trauma doesn't have to handle you. The trauma can make you a better person. If you let it handle you, then you can become the worst of yourself. Sometimes, it is really hard to keep it together as you overcome these obstacles. However, I have found one must forgive and amend as it is the right thing to do if needed.

I've let these changes make me stronger in me, and in doing so in my personal faith in God. Sure, I know it sounds strange, but to have something that strengthens and comforts you when you are not sure what end is up is a good thing. Why not have something to step onto when you are in a hole? You just have got to try such things and it's one of the most simplest, but toughest things you have to do.

You CAN always make it right. It may not be what you think it should be or what you want it to be, but it will always be good.

true life

Kind of reminds of me and Mr. Guy. :D

cats for da win

Utter Lawls

Upside Down Pineapple cake

My buddy and I were talking about making stuff. I like to make food. He asks me for my chocolate chip cookies in payment. Oh yes, I think I might default on that payment. >:)

Anyway, I told him that I made a good banana, pineapple upside-down cake and he told me his:

I have a better recipe:
1 get in car,
2 drive to bakery,
3 buy a chocolate cake since Pineapple sucks ass unless it;s mixed with vodka,
4 get some canolis as well since they fucking rock,
5 drive home,
6 eat cake with Milk

I told a friend and he made a British face:
:<

Yeahhhhhhhhhh....

Hic.

That's all I have to say. :)

Boy am I tired. My brain is just slithering along, barely moving. I need a break this week.

I intend to take one.

Meme Time!

Ok, Michico loves tagging me with memes. This is sleep. Wow I've been feeling tired this past week so that's perfect.

1. How long do you sleep each night?
Not long enough.

2. Do you fall asleep easily?
When I'm so tired that I drool or when I get really, really drunk. Hey, I have those pictures of michico...

3. Do you fall asleep at times not in your bed?
I have fallen asleep at my desk, often on my wrist. That really sucks.

4. Do you listen to music or use white noise to sleep?
I listen to my soul, telling me dark horrible things...or maybe it was that horrible fanfic that someone read to me for kicks...or I stayed up too late again watching Silent Hill walkthroughs.

5. Do you sleep through the night or get up a couple of times?
Depends if I've watched too many creepy things--like Silent Hill.

6. Do you have trouble sleeping away from your own bed?
No. If my bed wants to eat me, then no.

7. Do you need an alarm clock to get you up?
Sometimes. Then I shut it off and sleep some more.

8. Do you ever take medication to help you sleep?
Yes. Sometimes that is called anger or apathy.

9. Do you/have you slept with pets?
Not in that way.

Mood.

I've not been in a great mood lately, so here's something that made me smile.





Kittuns are always good. :)



So's stupid infantile humor. :P